Flaming Artist
I did these drawings in two of my early erotic sketchbooks, done when I was 21 years old and laid up for 2 months recovering from frost-bit feet that I acquired on Thanksgiving weekend 1981. I had nothing but time on my hands and was able to do these meticulous layered, luminous drawings that I’ll be serializing over the next few days.
I find this guy kind of hot, actually. Sort of like “The Owl”, from early “Daredevil” comics (Marvel, that is).
Referring to the Looney Tunes episode where Bugs Bunny battles Yosemite Sam. YS, as he sinks into defeat, says “I’m a Hessian with no aggression”.
Whatever.
This is another guy I’m not much into, but you may like.
Another guy who doesn’t turn me on, but may work for you.
This “hotness is in the eye of the beholder” stuff is really true, and it says more about the person giving the compliment than it does about the receiver. I can shower, shave, dress up nice or whatever, but I have no control over whether or not the object of my desire feels mutually. When I get cruised by somebody I find uninteresting, I try to be polite in my rejection. I’m reminded about the movie, “As Good As It Gets”, where Simon Bishop (Greg Kinnear) tells Melvin Udall (Jack Nicholson), “I love you.” Melvin replies, “If that worked for me, I’d be the happiest man alive” (or something like that). I usually say something like, “I wish I felt the same; if I did I could get laid.”
I did this sketch at last months C.A.P.S. http://www.capscentral.org/default.php meeting, in Burbank, California, to pass time during the announcements/business section. I personally don’t find this character sexually attractive, but someone else might, so here ’tis.
Actually that puts me in mind of something. EVERYBODY is sexually attractive to someone else somewhere. Even the Elephant Man probably had somebody out there somewhere who would have been kinked out for precisely that sort of thing. The trick is to find the attraction mutual. I have a page on the social networking site Bear411.comhttp://www.bear411.com/ ; I find it fascinating to see the various types of guys displayed therein. Many of the members are chasers rather than bears. But everybody has somebody posting a “You’re sexy”, or “Hot man”. So there’s hope out there, ladies and gents.
Think of the character, Butchie, from “Mutts”, by Patrick McDonnell. Actually, it doesn’t look very much like him. I’ll have to take another pass.
Here’s my second try at Butchie.
I feel sorry for straight guys; they’ll usually never know what a source for pleasure the anus is, or let themselves be open to exploring it. I’m reminded of “Peacher”, a DC/Vertigo comic series published in the late 90’s, written by Garth Ennis, illustrated by Steve Dillon. Specifically the villian, Herr Starr: at one point in the story line, he is anally raped and realizes he likes it. Thereafter, he pays female prostitutes to fuck him with using dildos. I actually sort of liked the character after that. At least he allowed the reality of his own experiences to lead him to moving beyond his preconceptions without guilt or shame. Unfortunately, he was still a bad guy.
I was, as a teen ager and young adult, attracted to men old enough to be my father. Now I am that age (52) myself. If I were to meet Lou Grant now, at the age he first appeared on the “Mary Tyler Moore” show, he would be a younger man (early 40’s). Most of my fantasies have dealt with younger men having sex with older men, with me placing myself in the position of the younger man. In my mind’s eye, I’m still James Dean. However, in reality, I’m more like Robert Bly. How do I wrap my head around this incongruous paradox? How will I adjust to the new reality? I routinely run into younger men who call me “sir”. I guess I’ll have to turn into a “sir”, since I have graduated from being male ingenue.
Ed Asner was my first big crush, in Jr. High and High School. I used to fantasize about Lou Grant fucking Mary Richards. I discovered I was gay when I replaced Mary with myself and found the fantasy exponentially more successful.
I was making no particular attempt to draw Lou Grant here, but this is definitely the same type.